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I bleed to dry out the pain...

I bleed to dry out the pain

and my head gets dizzy and i am so tired

i have anxiety and depression

i have flaws

i am not accepted

and i love two genders

when i should feel incapable of loving one

i cut myself sore until my tears feel like blood

and i keep it in

and i am so sad

and until there is a point to the universe

i will look forward to nothing but death

I Avtar lusts angers greeds attaches and has pride being...

I Avtar lusts angers greeds attaches and has pride being weighed down by God realm.

Last month, I bought my first bikini in years. Literally,...

Last month, I bought my first bikini in years. Literally, in 8ish years. I look fine in the bikini, but I just don't feel it, you know? My thighs are a bit bigger than other peoples at my age because being in a traveling dance group builds up strength. My butt is fine, I don't really care about it. It's my stomach that really bothers me. I'm perfectly normal for my height and age (5,6 and 14 y/o female), but I just feel fat (140 pounds).

I have a stress-eating problem and now, everything is catching up with me. So I'm eating less. I started off by eating everything later. Then I turned lunch and dinner into snacks rather than full meals. Then I started skipping lunch and breakfast became a snack. Now, I only eat a snack for breakfast, I skip lunch, and for than half the week, I skip dinner altogether.

My friends came over for a sleepover and found my weight keeping journal containing my weekly info on how much exercise I did and my weight at the end of the...

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I crashed into my friends range Rover..

I crashed into my friends range Rover.. PS - im POOR

I was molested by my brother for about 7 or 8 years. Over...

I was molested by my brother for about 7 or 8 years. Over the course of those years he use to let his best friend abuse me. The older I got, the more I thought it was normal.

Until I had a break and asked my mother why did she turn a blind eye to what was happening, but she still denies till this day of having any knowledge. Even though she caught him doing me one night.

I am almost forty and ashamed to say that he was my first orgasm and that I have not experienced pleasure with anyone else. It makes me feel sick, disgusting and worthless.

Recently, I been disconnected, loss and unfeeling and am afraid my relationship of 6 years is suffering. I don't know what to do or how to work through these things. It's so hard. I love Master very deeply and he knows I need pain to kill my internal conflicts.

I just embarrassed, I want to be normal.

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I suspect someone I know drains my vital energy while I...

I suspect someone I know drains my vital energy while I am asleep. Nobody knows this just me. I go to sleep feeling normal, only a bit sleepy of course. When getting closer to falling asleep I begin feeling weaker and some weird sensation in the middle of my chest.However wake up almost EVERYDAY feeling weak... something bad happens in my sleep. There is a possibility that maybe it is also an evil entity doing that. I pray and ask God to protect me from this but not always my faith is enough. I wish this evil thing stopped draining my soul every night.

Wish I was dead

I really wish I was dead

I am married to an amazing man. I am extremely lucky and...

I am married to an amazing man. I am extremely lucky and I love him completely.

I am extremely, palpably, magnetically drawn to another, who is a family friend. He and I had a very close call once, years ago, to the point of penetration... it stopped because we didn't want to be found out by my family. i was living at home, it was after a party, and the words were [me] "We have to be quiet" [him] "I can't be..." - and it stopped there. We went out once afterward, and that was that. Nothing more. This was well before I knew my husband. I think we both felt a little awkward for a time, a little guilty because of the complications.

Fast forward a few years. My husband and I are honest about our pasts. He knows about this, and we are all still casual friends. My husband knows I love him, but even he says that when the two of us (I and our friend) are in the room together there is tangible energy between us. We can't help it and don't think about it. It's just there....

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Non playable characters

Sometimes it seems the street where I live is real but it is artificially animated.This may sound as lunatic but sometimes certain individuals near where I act like NPCs (non-playable characters). I know they are not cg animated, of course.It is that they act exactly as if they had no "player", they act as if they had no soul and instead just a couple of sentences/phrases and just a couple of animations, that is, restrict programmed (and scarce) actions. For example there is a guy who always shouts the same things over and over. Sometimes the animation vary a bit. Just like some NPCs are programmed to only do and say certain pre-programmed things. For example: In a computer game a certain NPC character is programmed to alternate between saying "Hello!" And "Welcome", usually connected to what their function or personality is. However the difference is the people in my street seem to say the same things over and over and in the same way as"Hi!", "Hii!","Oh, oh!" "What?" And those...

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Wife humiliates me

I love when my wife humiliates my small penis. She has gotten So good at it. 

My wife was a virgin when we met. I have a 5 inch penis...

My wife was a virgin when we met. I have a 5 inch penis and like an idiot I went out and bought an 8 inch dildo.  I know she prefers that to me and I'm sure she has fantasized about having sex with someone that big. Now we are in a relationship where she is the dominant and I am a submissive. Part of me regrets buying it but another part of me loves the idea of being dominated. I only hope she doesn't act on her fantasy to have a real penis inside of her that is bigger than me.

There is one guys we being friend for about 2 yrs already...

There is one guys we being friend for about 2 yrs already. He nice but he like to curse a lot hahahah . We do text, chatting, share some story and he treat so nice and he like to tell story hahah, I'm the person who only listen and laugh and he looks lonely but in fact he has girlfriend but he never spoke bout it . I hate him because he gave me false hope on him . Why he have to treat me so dearly in fact he didn't like me. I wish i never met him, every time i see his smile i melt and his laugh to. I just pray for his happiness but the feeling inside of me it burn . I feel like i want to cry. i hope he stop treat me nicely. I cant expressed the feel now but i love him but he didn't realize that. That so painful i have to bare with this feeling. i hope you found your happiness A . 

I am getting married in March, that is love marriage. I...

I am getting married in March, that is love marriage. I know one guy since last 3 years but never became even friends and me, my would be husband and he working in the same organisation. Since 4th Feb we started knowing each other and became good friends. We started having bike rides, late night chatting, coffee, movie etc. and unknowingly started having feelings for each other. We used to flirt casually but now it became so serious. We can't stop our tears when we chat. During bike ride he continuously stares at me via the looking glass and same thing for me as well !!! He is coming in my marriage too as my would be husband has invited him. We know it's worthless still the days which we are spending together means a lot to us. He has promised that he will always be there in my need. And said those 3 magical words and I couldn't stop my tears. Can anyone please suggest me how to recover?

May sound odd but. I know there is something THICK has...

May sound odd but I know there is something THICK has been trying to force me against my own, true, personal, nature. Really forcefully pushing hard against what God created me to be. If I am supposed to be one thing then something big is trying to force me into another (why big? because why would anyone care about somebody else's nature unless changing that nature served a greater purpose, not necessarily a positive purpose) 

Also, trying to make be/become the opposite of what I should act, think, say, feel, believe. 

Just pushing for the complete opposite. As if the "odds" had life on it's own , and had to fulfill orders to always make me be at the wrong time, at the wrong place, with the wrong person (even trying to make me be the wrong person to be at the wrong time and place), say/do/make/be/feel the wrong thing always at the wrong time and space of course. It is as if things, Everything actually, have been and ARE being inverted, or upside down. And the...

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I'm addicted to sex because I'm an introvert..

I'm addicted to sex because I'm an introvert and have been rejected by girls many times. The problem is that I'm addicted to sex with the wrong sex. Please help me get out of this before I move into deep depression.

I am a female and I don't really understand why I am...

I am a female and I don't really understand why I am called a dick too many times for a lady. It doesn't even make any sense when analysing my behaviour and manners, attitudes etc

I wish I knew how to deal with the skipping of...

I wish I knew how to deal with the skipping of acquaintance status steps, performed by others on me. Usually the whole simple process of making somebody an acquaintance becomes just too quick for me or people were trying to scare me. The steps necessary for getting known by others simply are inexistent. For example, if I am knew in some place people come to me and ask super private questions . For example they jump from"What's your name?" To "When was your first time?" , or if there is a neighbor I barely speak to unless a "hi" to be polite, and next day he is stalking me to places when I try and TRY so hard to be so discreet that I don't even have social media anymore. Why would anyone try to scare a visibly shy and insecure person into more timidity and isolation? (if this wasn't the initial goal when they initiated getting acquainted with me then what it was.) I never saw people doing this to anybody else though.

I don't know how long I've been cutting myself but Its...

I don't know how long I've been cutting myself but It's close to consuming me whole leg.

I am a lesbian dominant that loves spanking pussies and I...

I am a lesbian dominant that loves spanking pussies and I also love to dirty talk. 

I'm a 14 almost 15 year old girl who loves makeup. I've...

I'm a 14 almost 15 year old girl who loves makeup. I've gotten multiple jobs in the makeup field so far. I've worked at The Children's Theater, The Stages Theater, school plays and dances and several free-lance jobs.

I want to end up having a career working with makeup, but I don't really know any good beauty schools in the US for it. I'm thinking about college already because I want to know what options are out there and I see so many people (including my older brother) stress about college applications.

Please don't tell me things like "You know that makeup don't pay that high, right?" Yes, I know, but would you really want to be stuck doing something you HATE for tons of cash? Or do something you LOVE for a bit less?

Any good beauty/makeup colleges (that have a reasonable tuition)?

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