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I made a rule 5 years ago that I wouldn't look up a girl...

I made a rule 5 years ago that I wouldn't look up a girl I had been in love with anymore. We were never more than friends and not even that by the time I decided that I had to quit thinking about her. At that point in my life I was seriously depressed, and had convinced myself that everything would have been better if this relationship had been something more. In reality that never would have happened. I managed to move on with my life after grappling with my stupid obsession for years, and I was proud of myself.

I've grown a lot as a person since then. It hasn't been perfect but I'm heading in the right direction. I did end up obessed with another girl however, and spend a significantamount of time daydreaming about spending the rest of my life with her. This has only been made worse by my moving to a new city and the loneliness I'm experiencing. I probably will never see her again, and am having a tough time coming to grips with it. So I stupidly looked up this other...

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Forgive me Father for I have sinned. I have stolen money...

Forgive me Father for I have sinned. I have stolen money from my daughter my mother. I have stolen credit cards and used them. I steal from store by way of changing price tags. I lie. Just today lied to new landlord about location because I am worried that check bounced lied to our landlord now because I don't have money to pay rent. I always lie to my husband about money. I am doing so great on being sober I only pray I can get my financial sending addition under control. 

Please Father forgive me. Give us a smooth move into new house and give me strength to make sure all our finances are taken care of properly.

Please pray for me (us)

God Bless & Thank you.

I was 12 it's when my brother stopped talking to me for no reason...

am 18 years old my life started to suck when i was 12 it's when my brother stopped talking to me for no reason IMAGINE !!!!!  and after that i commuted things am not proud of i even entered therapy am a muslim and am very happy with my religion and i know why am in such bad situation it's all explained in the QURAN . i just want to say that am starting to get better PEOPLE : the key to your problems are many believe me but try to make others happy . help them in need smile with the poor be generous with those who doesn't have a house nor food go to an orphelin kids house and get them toys . visit old people and chat with them but most importantly gift your parents it will make them happy ^_^ do good and pray god to help you then start a new life stay away from your bad habits and have faith in god that he will forgive you then don't look back move on love everyone and also don't ever get arrogant on a poor it will destroy your life

AND DEAR PERSON WHO READ THIS : DON'T...

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Lovely unexpected moment with a secret crush

So, let's get this cleared out first: I'm in a committed and loving relationship and I will never, EVER betray my boyfriend's trust. However, there's this one guy friend who gives me butterflies in stomach...

We both sing at the same choir. I haven't made any kind of a move on him but we're friends nonetheless.

So, today we had our usual choir rehearsal and we practiced a song that has a very certain choreography to it: The song is basically a jolly folk song about men and women wooing each other and bragging about their wonderful love lives. The choreography could be described somehow like this:

1. first men and women stand in separate groups, gossiping, even flirting a bit with the other side etc.

2. both start acting aloof, playing hard to get, singing how they really aren't interested in the other

3. eventually both genders come around; every singer searches someone of the opposite sex and men pull women into half-hugs

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She wasn't virgin bro...

Hello Guys,

i am a guy from mechanical 3rd year studying engineering in one of the most reputed coll in india.

i just a worst feeling ever in my life today

i was in love with a girl from computer science, she was looking pretty well i kn for every guy his girl looks pretty, but expectations r der bro, she was really stunning and" innocent"

let me story of story by giving u guys a little info about my so called fucking love story(by now u would have come to conclusion that mine was a boring breakup story) guys w8 till the end atleast for the sake of god.

i met her in coll only our love story started in 1sem oly.

she used to mention about her previous boy frd, but she wasn't saying too much.

but after 3 years i read a email which was sent to her account by her only,she had backed up her previous gfs messages

to my shocking surprise, she wasn't virgin bro she had sex with him for 3 time holy fuck, have u ever believe a girl from...

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I brought my wife out to dinner tonight and carefully...

I brought my wife out to dinner tonight and carefully parked in a mostly empty lot. When I returned to my car some fucktard had parked so close to me that i could barely open the door. When every this happens, instead of swallowing my fucking anger, I keyed that mother fuckers car from stem to stern. let this be a lesson if you are an ignorant, inconsiderate fuck, I will always key your fucking car if you park too close. and you know what I dont feel that guilty. YOU DESERVE IT

can i get an AMEN?

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What's the first thing that come through your mind when...

What's the first thing that come through your mind when you wake up in the morning?

coffee? what to eat breakfast? works? family? friends?how to spend the money?

Do you ever feel like wanting to never wake up in the morning? to sleep at night and never wake up? then you'll be a goner.

That's what i feel almost every morning. yeah, almost... because i still know that i have responsibilities, to my family, to all of my closed relations. The thought was always there since i don't know when.

That thought, is not because i feel afraid to face the world, but because whats the used of me living in this world, without me the world will keep going, my family...i think they will be fine.

I have nothing to lose, those beautiful dreams and goals, i killed them a long time ago, the time i realized that i am nothing, and everything around me seemed so fake. All the smiles i was given turned into a backstabbing mock. All the things that maybe i could enjoy by...

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I am a broken child. Its hard to admit it, but my life...

I am a broken child. Its hard to admit it, but my life was shattered into pieces at a very early age. I hate talking about my life story to my friends family or teachers, because they know me. I just wish there was someone out there kind of like me that would be willing to talk to me. 

Basically, here's my life story:

It all starts with me in the womb. While my mother was pregnant with me, she smoked about 6 packs of cigarettes daily, plus excessive alcohol and whatever other things she put into her body-(As well as mine). I was born just over a month prematurely, and little chance of survival, but i somehow managed to live through it. Life just go worse as i got older, though. I was the baby of six other kids in the house, and was always getting beat up. My parents would beat me with belts and pots and pans and basically anything they could get their hands on. My brothers and sister weren't any different. I was neglected. I was abused in every single way. Then,...

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I believe I killed an elderly person with internet...

I believe I killed an elderly person with internet connection rage.
I piggyback off my neighbors wifi and I believe him or his wife just died.  Anyways, Ive only been doing this for last two weeks.  Whne they started using it I would make a point to slow their internet speed.  They have always left their wifi unlocked and no password even on the router.  The perfect conditions basically.  Another neighbor was also using im pretty sure, locked them out lol.  Anyways after two weeks of me turning off their entertainment center, and computers; One of them dies.  

  

I lost my pet, my best friend Pepper

 Hi reader,

      I'm lost. Sad. Confused. I lost my pet, my best friend, Pepper. I loved her so much, and she died at two years old, because of a kidney failure. I wanted something to fill the hole in my heart when she died, so I got a dog. Her name is Cookie. Cookie is the exact opposite of Pepper, she has white fur, is tiny, and loves  everyone. When we got her, I didn't realize it, but I still had a void in my heart. Now, I feel regret because she is a lot more unfavored than my past dog. What I mean is I don't play with her, I don't give her treats, and I don't treat her as well as I treated Pepper. I feel like if we had never gotten Cookie, some loving family could make her happier, and give her far more attention than I did. I still feel a void in my heart for Pepper, and cry alot about how I wish I never had Cookie, and still had Pepper. I feel like this is unfair to Cookie, and i'm starting to feel bad. I miss Pepper, are mad at myself for getting Cookie, and...

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Just "Friends!"

 Back story:

I am a 28yo female. I've been married for 10 years.

My co-worker is in his mid-forties and also married.

I worked at "the facility" for 10 months and trained him 2 months ago.

Fast foreward 1 week ago:

I was just moved  back to the night shift and he worked 2-3 nights a week. His actual shift is on the weekend.  One night when we were working together, my pants kept slipping off my waist revealing my green underwear, i kept pulling them up as we stocked the linens onto the shelf.  Once we finished I went into the laundry room to fold clothes and he followed me.  

     He walks up to me, reaches down and says " I'm sorry it's been  bothering me. You're underwear are rolled up." He then proceeds to unfurl them as i stand there in shock.

Next night:

     He isn't working tonight, but I can't seen to get him off my mind. So I send him a text telling him how many patients we will have the following day ( I...

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Currently in my clinical rotation for nursing school with...

Currently in my clinical rotation for nursing school with a female professor. The first day I met her I noticed how pretty, cool, young, and she is incredibly intelligent. I as a student starting developing a gigantic crush on her. I see her every two weeks and every time I try getting over this crush, the second week I see her it sparks my heart again. I like her so much. Except that I am her student, am a girl (she is straight and married), and am not the brightest student in the group so far. She pushes me to do better and always asks me questions, but eventually she helps me with answers. I can't stop this crush and it is distracting me from focusing on my assignments and other school work. My heart is in agony. Whyyy haha

I am 17 years old.. m having many problems in my life.i...

I am 17 years old.. m having many problems in my life.i am one of those who never commits own problem. I am having boyfriend.. who don't cares for me.. I don't knew he loves me or not... We had a 2 year relationship.. at d beginning everything goes perfect but now he has become a self centered person.. he never appreciates me.. he wants me to do everything with his permission... I can't talk to anyone .. can't go anywhere.. I can't connect to the social media.. because he don't wants that.. I remain calm coz I luv him.. Nd wanted this relationship.. but now .. he don't want that... He dont even gave me a reason.. I commit suicide two times.. but God saved me I don't know why.. he has become my life.. once I cheated on him because of his this kind of behavior.. he is so aggressive.. he is horrible.. m damn sure he will kill me one day.. my parents don't care about me.. because I am a girl.And they wanted a boy. My uncle has harassed me sexually... I started drinking to forget all...

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I had about 19 years of sobriety, after my wife's suicide...

I had about 19 years of sobriety, after my wife's suicide, I slipped an drank for a few months...have been sober now for over a year....however, I have been smoking pot since my wife's suicide....I really want to stop cuz it makes me feel so dumb....but it feels good...

kids have almost caught me in the act several times....

please help me...

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I confess that I have been smoking pot since my wife...

I confess that I have been smoking pot since my wife committed suicide in april  2015.....I did not take her death well....we were married in 2003, and after some happy years, she descended into a mix of pill addiction and hypochondria going from doctor to doctor getting all types of 'potential diagnosis' but never a real one....for the safety and sake of the children I had to begin divorce proceedings...after several bizzare incidents the judge kicked her out of our home....about a week or so before the divorce was finalized, she killed herself by poison....

I have felt tremendous, burdenous grief over this....I quit my job and kind of isolated.....I am still in a semi-isolation state.....

I also cheated on her many times throughout our divorce and felt terrible about those...and to top it off, I am a born-again Christian! I have this pure, nice, sweet side then this distorted side, it's terrible....

God please forgive me.

K****

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Why do I have to be me?

Hello world..I'm 19 and black... I have things much worse because of my skin. I see that my white friends have it more healthier and happier life than me. Its opposite with my black friends. Most of my white friends were raised in a two parent homes..but I and some my black friends was raised in a single parent home. My white friends parents were so nice to me than the black ones. Even my own parent...I hated calling her mommy, mama or mother. I usually call her by her first name. She is a gold digging, controlling, lazy bitch and mean to all three of her kids. I'm shocked that my sister and brother still calls her mommy. She treated like slaves and abused us. Now, I'm glad I am going to be gone out her house and going to be doing something with my life... I wished I had a father in my life while I was growing up. My family could've been more better like my friends family. I'm just a broken hearted black woman that cries when I hear "father" comes out of someone mouth. Sometimes I...

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I am a ball of wasted potential, due to various factors...

I am a ball of wasted potential, due to various factors but a large one being generational family dysfunction on both sides. And I am still angry despite all "forward-looking" reasoning. I wish my mom's abuser had dropped dead back when he started. My mom and her sisters could have led much, MUCH fuller lives. They are so smart, but they were mentally crippled. Abuser was enabled with full access, and enabler abused emotionally. I am so angry. And now both abusers are dead after living long, wealthy lives, well-loved by the community, while playing mind games for decades after.

i just dont care. I feel like shit and nothing motivates...

i just dont care. I feel like shit and nothing motivates me anymore. I should be studying and I am not. I should be caring more about my relationship but I dont. I need to get good grades and I need to make up with my girl but I cannot find the motivation to do so. It has been a very rough long week that do not seem to be going anywhere. I have two tests tomorrow that are extremely important to me future. I have invested years into getting to this point. Why am I fucking this up? why am I fucking this up. why am I avoiding my dad? what is wrong with me. why cant I just do this? what is stopping me? I feel that the only was is to learn through bad decisions. 

I am a very happily married woman but for the last 11...

I am a very happily married woman but for the last 11 years I've been in love with someone else as well as my husband. We agreed that nothing could, or would come of it as we are both in committed relationships and have children. We have tried not being in touch with each other but the longest we've managed this is around 18 months. We just keep getting drawn back to each other. Neither of us wants to leave our partner, but we just can't seem to turn off our feelings. After a recent meet-up, where we connected more deeply than ever before (and he told me he's always loved me), he told me he couldn't see me again as he felt too guilty. Until then it had always been me saying this. I asked if we could still chat online as friends and he said yes. However he's now become distant and I really feel like I've lost him this time. I feel heartbroken yet unable to show it and it's killing me inside. I know it's for the best but I feel like I'm grieving and can't tell anyone.

I am a male figure model currently posing 4 hours a day,...

I am a male figure model currently posing 4 hours a day, 5 days a week for a month.

I am in love with the woman to my immediate left, and every day I fall more and more for her. Her boyfriend has the easel right smack next to hers, so I'm not going to be an ass and try to take things any further, but every day that goes by, it gets hotter and hotter.

She is gorgeous. Her legs, her feminine hips, her shiny black hair, her olive skin, her enormous eyes, her breasts which, when she sketches, wiggle left and right and drive me nuts.

But mostly I love the way she looks at me. This morning I said to myself "Ok, I'm not going to look at E once the whole session, I'm just going to look at the wall." Yet our eyes met and I couldn't help it, I made a face and her face exploded into a smile, the type of smile that says "I like you, and not just because you are in front of me without your clothes." 

I look forward to seeing her every day and I...

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