Ever since I was little, I've always wanted to be an artist. I had a passion for drawing since I could hold a pencil and whenever anyone asked what I wanted to be when I grew up, my response was always the same. I was confident in my talents and I loved to make crafts along with drawing and creating music. As I got older, I found the opportunity to go to a professional art school for college, but I am coming to realize that maybe I'm really not cut out to be an artist. I tried to stay positive through the years, but now the comments from my mom about how there's no money to be made in art and the hints that my work isn't great is finally getting to me. This is now my second year in art school, and I can't find the joy in ANYTHING anymore. Not my art, not video games, not hanging out with my few close friends... nothing. I feel like it's pointless to keep trying at this point. I don't feel my art is improving and nobody seems to believe in me... There's just no point in anything I'm doing. I can't feel anything else these days besides apathy and irritation occasionally. I don't know what to do.

 
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