I bleed to dry out the pain

and my head gets dizzy and i am so tired

i have anxiety and depression

i have flaws

i am not accepted

and i love two genders

when i should feel incapable of loving one

i cut myself sore until my tears feel like blood

and i keep it in

and i am so sad

and until there is a point to the universe

i will look forward to nothing but death

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I have been a cutter for 15 years. I've been burning myself for about 3 years. I have anxiety, depression, PTSD, bipolar and several other things and I just wanted to tell you it gets better

I know how you feel. I feel as if I have no one. I refuse to get help, but you would be so much better with the help. Never be afraid to tell your parents, because they would just want to help you.

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