The only time I don't think in killing myself is when I sleep. But rest Of the time is the only thing in my mind. I don't do it because I have no courage and every time , I have tried before it did no work I'm so useless than I can't even end my life. I such looser.

My life is a mess and it had geting worse since my husband die. I don't know why I'm here.

 
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I think that you should take some time to think about your passions are. Whether it is a sport, a musical instrument, writing, acting, dancing, teaching or whatever it is. If you can find something that you love (especially something that you can do with other people) will feel better focusing your time and energy on that.

Your not a loser because you can't kill yourself. The fact that you can't is a good thing because to be so stressed out to the point where you want suicide is never a good thing. This does not make you useless it means your natural human instincts are fighting against you so that you won't die. The human body will always be struggling to survive whether you want it or not. You need to live on though. If you need motivation just think of all the people who will miss you when you are gone.
 

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