Secrets about Fear & Horror

 

I am depressed and I have no one to turn to...

I am depressed and I have no one to turn to. I need help. Please.

I feel afraid of failing because I think that people will...

I feel afraid of failing because I think that people will think I am stupid.

Ben S from Miami raped me

He penetrated my urethra and now I have urinary incontinence.

Nobody would believe me but, there's a macabre creepy 60+...

Nobody would believe me but, there's a macabre creepy 60+ man watching me, my private life, a perv and a psychopath. There's this really gruesome side of him from years of accumulated consumed violence, which he is addicted to. But psychopath in this case means: morbid(not as in fat), sordid, macabre, not just without empathy or guilt. Literally gives me nightmares (of the worst sort, the kind you wake up sweating and wanting to hide or run as if the nightmare was still happening), there's a chance he really invaded my normally random dreams and transformed it into a nightmare. I know females are prone to be more paranoid about psychopaths than men but not a paranoid lady here. I have a good grasp on reality. It just happens I am surrounded by danger and a bit of psychopaths here and there.

He is not a relative friend or whatever. I am not talking about social media or anything like that I really mean it WATCHING ME. He is waiting for the right moment to catch me, any...

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On the surface, my life seems quite happy, straight A’s,...

On the surface, my life seems quite happy, straight A’s, lots of friends and a happy family. But underneath, it's sad. At least to me it is. I only have one real best friend and about 2 real friends. One of my “friends” is a total jerk that ditches me all the time. Another “friend” complains about everything and keeps trying to suspended someone just because they're annoying. A group of my “friends” are keeping a former “friend” out of their group for literally no reason. That's all pretty messed up and annoying. And I would tell those “friends” that I don't want to be friends anymore, but they're all friends with my best friend, and if I told them I didn't want to be friends, my only best friend would ditch me. I also have the fear of being forgotten or abandoned. I often feel alone since I can't tell anyone this, because they won't understand. My life is pretty boring other than that. I'm scared that since I'm boring, my best friend will abandon me. I'm also...

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So I started dating this guy I have known for seven years...

So I started dating this guy I have known for seven years but we were only friends for like three months. Anyways before we dated he said some things that made me not want to date him any more and he apologized but I still was mad. About three weeks layer I forgave and asked him out. We dated for about a !other then we went on break  (from school) and I couldn't see him as much and he would always get mad. So to make me jealous he kept talking about other girls and after a week of that I was done and we agreed to break up. About 8 hours after we broke up he texted me a really cute picture of him asking me to take him back and he called me beautiful. I took him back because he is generally sweet and he apologized for what he did.

Well the next day I went to meet him at a park and some of our friends were there. He kept trying to kiss me and I turned it down once or twice but also kissed him back once or twice. I turned him down with kissing because I'm a private person and...

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I have a secret boyfriend....

I have a boyfriend, but I'm too scared to tell anyone about him, thinking they might judge him and not like him. He makes me really happy and he's everything to me. It's only been a month and a half and he's all I think about, I love him more than anything. Now he wants to meet my family, but he doesn't know that I kept him a secret. Oops.

Regret Is A Vile Creature

Never leave any regrets in your life. They eat you alive over time. Ten years ago I was 18 and met a guy and we got married after dating 4 months. But he was cheater and liar. I left him soon after we got married. But I have regretted it ever since. Its been 10 years and I still love him. But after I left him I messed my life up bad. Did a lot of dumb things that would be toxic to any relationship. He told me he still loved me last year but I turned him down. My mistakes would ruin his life. I want him to be happy even its w/o me. I have a current bf but in my heart I dont love him fully. He knows this though, he tries to help me move forward. I try to get over my ex husband but I cant. Its a real contradiction. Now all that is left is regret and it is destroying my sanity.

Holiday Blues

What are the holidays? To most a time of joy and family. What if you have neither? Sure I have a husband, but thats all i have. Most days I feel so alone. I suffer from many mental illnesses, but I wouldnt kill myself. But the holidays trigger so many memories, good and bad. How do you survive when you died inside years ago? I dont even know anymore. I failed as a mother (my kid was taken by the state too much to explain why. mostly they found me unfit due to mental health issues even though i was in counseling and trying be well), my mother never wanted me (she tells me every chance she can that it was a mistake and she wishes she miscarried) my father ditched at age 2 then died unexpectedly before i even got know him i have a few half siblings who never been in my life and no other living "family". All i have left is a husband who loves me and tries to help me but he doesnt understand enough.

I play with peoples emotions because I love to do it...

I play with peoples emotions because I love to do it. Its like playing god almost. Have you ever just wanted to control over someone? Its like I have that ability and I love it.

I'm an 11 year old girl and I'm very depressed...

I'm an 11 year old girl. I'm very depressed and my parents don't know. Well, my Mom does, but she brushed it off.I have a friend who is going through what I'm going through and he keeps telling me that I don't understand him. He doesn't know what I'm going through. I do self harm, I wear my jacket everywhere so that my friends don't ask about it. I told anyone who asked that my bruises came from gymnastics/dance. I can't tell my parents. and at the same I have to talk my friend out of suicide every night cause he's all I have left.

Scary situation

OK I was in a tight spot the other night I was in charge of closing the store at my job when a man with a gun walked in demanded the money out of the registers and then when I thought it was over he demanded the safe in the office I gave him the safe keys and he ordered me in the back storage room and told me to strip to my underwear and lay face down on the floor he tied me up with duck tape and taped my mouth shut he took my clothes and closed the door as he left it took me a while to get myself free from the tape but it was a scary ordeal and hope I won't go through it again :/

OK so I was in a scary situation one night at work...

OK so I was in a scary situation one night at work I was in charge of closing the store when a  man with a gun walked in demanded the money out of the register and then when I thought it was over he demands the safe in the office we go back in the office I hand him the safe key he tells me to strip to my underwear and lay face down on the floor he ties me up with duck tape and gags me with the duck tape empties the safe and leaves it took me 2 hours to untie myself but it could have been worst ...it was a scary situation I hope I don't go through that again :/

I want to kill

I want to kill. I want to know how it feels.

Nightmares of the past

When I was six years old, I was molested. My older step brother J, and his friend at the time Robert were watching me while my parents were at the store. We were having fun we were shooting bb guns, and just hanging out. Later that evening, my brother went out for a smoke, it was just me and Robert in the house. He told me to come sit on his lap, I said no. He kept saying it's all right I'm like your brother in a way, I said no your not. He wouldn't leave it alone so I sat on his lap, being only six I didn't think much of it. Then he started touching me, I told him to stop, he kept doing it I kept saying no stop, i tried to get off of him, he wouldn't let me. He didn't let me go until he heard my brother coming in. Later my parents come home, I tell my mom what happened I was confused. She had me call my gma w, and my Gma w, called the cops. I had to go talk to some people at the courthouse about what happened and they explained what it was. Robert didn't go to jail or anything no...

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I am 28 now.suprisingly i find that i have in a worse...

I am 28 now.suprisingly i find that i have in a worse mental and emotional state any one can have. after little self analyzation reach to a conclusion that i am in a depression for more than 1 year.so after it i thought there must be some thing that cause this situation.in 2014 one pvt farm fired me after picking me in campus interview. As i also never wanted that kind of job in my life. but still was there because they paid me.After this Event go worked for another farm (same pvt industry) they too told to live me as my sales quota not matching there sheet.

before some year back i fell in love with a girl but after knowing that she had a boyfriend choose not ask her.but some month after that girl came to me and we had a relation that time i was 21. everything went good for 2 year after that i found that she is controlling my life by hacking into my personal profile( though i never was that kind of guy who easily cheat or lie i never do this) but soon after we get into...

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I was 13 when I moved in with my father. He was a born...

I was 13 when I moved in with my father. He was a born again Christian forgiving himself for years of neglect toward me and my sister. He had gotten out of prison 3 years before and had married his ex girlfriend he knocked up before going to prison the first time. He was a born again Christian, forgiving himself for all the years of neglect towards his children and only God knows what else. He had found peace in his 6 year long faith found inside the brick walls of an unforgiving prison cell. I had lived with my father for almost a year now and I hated my step mother, she was always jealous and needy. Increasingly annoying within the last couple of months always laying in bed and wanting him to join her. I always asked myself why she wanted my dad in their room so bad when she had a huge purple strap on under her side of the bed. I wonder how that works, or who it's for. Lmfao. She had herpes so obviously it was when she had breakouts or something. Anyway she went through my things...

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Okay, so... I like this girl, a lot. We hang out a lot,...

Okay, so... I like this girl, a lot. We hang out a lot, and she has a boyfriend, and so do I. She's straight, and I'm Bit, but I really wish I could tell her. But I'm also afraid. What do I do?

Standard guy at 34 yr old stock drooling over a need for...

Standard guy at 34 yr old stock drooling over a need for underage teen flesh but terrified to act of course. Life is getting consumed and it's growing to an unhealthy obsession. And I'm actually good looking, week hung and don't need for sexual attention.... Crazy I've desire for 15 yr old!!!!!!!!

I don't say anything

I've kissed boys I've kissed girls and I'm only 13 and I'm a girl. My parents don't let me date and don't know about me liking girls the way I do. I don't have depression but I'm not happy I have severe anxiety and my mom doesn't know I have attacks up to three times a day. I lobe the few friends I have but I never share secrets with them or who I like and I won't tell the stories of my first kiss and how it was with a girl. I'm bi sexual so I like guys but not as strongly as my girlfriend from last year. I make up friends to make my parents think I'm happy. I've dug a hole so deep and I can't get out I don't share how I feel I need a life that I love a lot more than this. I don't tell anyone who I am or how I feel.

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