Secrets about Fear & Horror

 

I am a junior in high school and everyday when I walk...

I am a junior in high school and everyday when I walk home from school I run into my girlfriend sitting on the train tracks. I sat with her and talked to her for hours and left at a certain time. My secret? she was hit and killed by a train 3 years ago. I constantly relive this and the more I try to wake up, the shorter my hours get with her 

The SCP foundation is real...

The SCP foundation is real

My name is Michele and I work at a place that has many similarities to the fictional online idea of the SCP foundation. We collect new creatures and slowly realise information about them until we give the media full permission to access all archives on the creates naming it a "newly discovered animal, plant, fungi or bacteria" we have found every creature on this planet but we haven't given you all the details on them yet. To prove to you that this is true I will tell you this in at the end of the summer of 2017 a new plant will be found and so will two water based bacteria.

I felt it was my Job to tell someone but I was scared that whoever I told would be hurt.

You should know that this kind

of thing would be going on I mean come on

ur government controlling you, you should

run

i hope someone understand me.

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When I was 12, my mom told me I was a hypochondriac. A...

When I was 12, my mom told me I was a hypochondriac. A big word that means( and I recently found out is a anxiety disorder) I always think there is something wrong with me, which I translated to attention whore, super low self esteem not meant to offend anyone else. About a year later I found out I was gay, then 3months ago I developed anxiety because of being gay and a wholesome other problem, then I developed depression(self diagnosed). This all sparked my first ever major fear, that my brain is lying to me. Is that bad?

I am just a wimp who can't deal with life. 

Hi

Hi everyone... 

My secret is...I'm planning to go abroad for studying but sometimes when i think deep down i don't like to do anything and i hate myself because of that cause i know how much money my mom is going to spend for me but i can not tell her that the only reason that i want to leave is to get the chance to have chance to date with asians...i feel like a fool... My whole family is so well educated and i feel this pressure...but at the end of the day i just want to meet an Asian guy and date him and then get married...i don't know what to do... I just feel awful cause what if i go and don't study hard and waisting my time there and don't even meet anyone...there are so many what ifs on my mind

I'm afraid to leave

I'm getting married in July. I love my fiancé very much but sometimes I'm afraid of him. He has a short temper and is very emotionally abusive. He controls most aspects of my life and is very sexist towards me. I did something awful and cheated on him, if he ever knew, I don't think it would turn out well for me. But, I loved the other man very much and he was very kind and gentle. I scarred that man emotionally because I wouldn't leave my fiancé for him. I fear the consequences of leaving my fiancé. Not just of him hurting me, but him hurting himself. I'd rather suffer with the guilt and fear, than let him die. So I can never leave.

Meltdowns

For some reason, I randomly breakdown everyday. I'm not even sure why I always cry. I can't even talk about it to everybody because it may seem shallow and stupid to talk about but it is big deal for me. You know, when you have the pressure on your shoulders that you an barely get by, but you're still trying to smile after all those pressure and stress you've had. Every time I cry, I felt like I'm not strong anymore. I want to go outside and have fun and not worry about anything but it's still there, the stress and pressure you bare are still on my shoulders.   

i cant stop thinking i know i never will do it but the...

i cant stop thinking i know i never will do it but the thoughts just freak me out sometimes

the thought of killing myself comes on an average of 20 times a day

i plan out strategies in my head of bombing up my school going into such detail to the point it feels real

i plan out killing my family in there sleep

and ruing away 

i have never hurt anyone before and i don't ever want to but theirs something just telling me to "do it to stop living your nuclear life and do something". "you're reality is an illusion.nothings real"

i guess I've just been up in my head for so long nothing feels real

I've lost site of reality 

I was molested by my grandfather when i was in grade 7-8...

I was molested by my grandfather when i was in grade 7-8 He tickles me i thought we were playing but he started pressing my breast i didnt want to sleep with him because he would hurt me. my parents used to ask me to sleep with him because he is old and sick they didnt know

 i didnt want to but i lied down and he molested me again i didnt know whom to tell how will mom react or sis i kept it within me till today. When my boyfriend annoys me and tickles i get that memory.wanted to open up so bad thanks secrets cafe 

I'm 20 two years into college and haven't seen a doctor...

I'm 20 two years into college and haven't seen a doctor since I was a toddler at this point I wouldn't even know how to make an appointment or what type of appointment I would need to make.

It's not like I'm unhealthy I just never got hurt or so sick I couldn't sleep or off, I don't know why I never got checkups as a kid my two siblings did.

This includes dentist, gynecologist, and optimologist.

I tried to call today to get a checkup but I got to embaressed/ chickened out on the phone and hung up. Hospitals give me the skeevs since I saw my dad in a medically induced coma while visiting him after he was in a car accident when I was five.

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Are my neighbors the worst neighbors or what

I hate my neighboors because they have no reasons to persecute me, but however they do it with a passion.I confess this here knowing I can't tell this to anyoneelse or anyone trutworthy I wish I had though.God forgive me if by denouncing this situation here I am sinning.

My neighboor and his sons really seeth with anger well just because I am alive?They are the worst neighboors .I suspect some of them do some nasty stuff in our garden in order to not let the anger for me build up. I believe one or two of them procedes to their business in our garden, yes their lovely natural healings and needs, however they do have other vicious ways of attacking me(because they usually jack off near my bedroom wall, thankfully outside, again not 100% sure) I am talking gangstalking , murder attempt and even suspicion of pet murder but I don't have any evidence nor do I have any pets left to use as bait for the pet serial killers in order to prove my point.In my opinion a person who kills...

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Resently I have been questioning if there is a afterlife...

Resently I have been questioning if there is a afterlife or not. I have been putting myself into a panic due to my own fear of the unknown. I guess it's common to fear death but I'm just scared that there is nothing and I won't get to see any of my loved ones who have already passed. I can't concentrate with this thought always in the back of my mind, I've tried talking to my parents about it and they say that I'm only 17 and I have no need to worry about it but i know that, I know that and I know i cant do anything about it im just really scared I know it might seem dumb but I just want to get these thought out of my mind

I feel like a failure

When I was 23 years old, I was raped by two guys I thought I could trust. I had gone over my friend's house to spend some time. I thought we were just going to sit around, talk, eat cheap food, and smoke. When one of them started wrestling with me I thought he was just playing. I even laughed when the other guy started pulling my pants off. I didn't realize what was happening until they started doing it to me. Both of them raped me while I yelled and cried and squirmed, and both of them came in me.

I haven't spoken to either of them since that day. I tried so hard to push it out of my mind and forget it and bury it for ears but I think about it every day. I cry almost every day. I think about killing myself every day.

I have never told anyone I knew about this, because I'm ashamed of myself for being such a failure of a man that I let two animals hold me down and rape me. And I'm more ashamed of letting it affect my life this much. I've never had a girlfriend. My...

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When I was 23 years old, I was raped by two guys I...

When I was 23 years old, I was raped by two guys I thought I could trust. I had gone over my friend's house to spend some time. I thought we were just going to sit around, talk, eat cheap food, and smoke. When one of them started wrestling with me I thought he was just playing. I even laughed when the other guy started pulling my pants off. I didn't realize what was happening until they started doing it to me. Both of them raped me while I yelled and cried and squirmed, and both of them came in me.

I haven't spoken to either of them since that day. I tried so hard to push it out of my mind and forget it and bury it for ears but I think about it every day. I cry almost every day. I think about killing myself every day.

I have never told anyone I knew about this, because I'm ashamed of myself for being such a failure of a man that I let two animals hold me down and rape me. And I'm more ashamed of letting it affect my life this much. I've never had a girlfriend. My...

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 Some people think that black people can't be racist...

 Some people think that black people can't be racist. Racist means: a person who shows or feels discrimination or prejudice against people of other races, or who believes that a particular race is superior to another. or showing or feeling discrimination or prejudice against people of other races, or believing that a particular race is superior to another. I'm white but some times I feel that people think I'm a bad person for being white and their saying blacks are better than my race. Let me just give you a heads up that EVERYONE MATTERS!!

i have felt death, or something i could only imagine...

i have felt death, or something i could only imagine being death. it is something that brushes over me like wind. when it is there, i can feel cold, but not in temperature. the world around me feels quiet, even though it is loud. and it all wraps around me and consumes me until it is finally gone. 

i first felt this when i was six years old.

on 11/18/22, i will either die, or something bad will happen. i do not know why this has come up, nor why i am feeling this will happen.

i am thirteen. 

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I hear the voices in my head...

I hear the voices in my head

I know they are not real 

But they are the hardest to ignore

Never has something so intangible controlled my life before

Never have I been so afraid to lose the war

I fear for the lives that surround me including my own

But then the voice speaks and convinces me otherwise

Now I believe that death is not the end of me

Death is the solution to the world around me

I apolgize for what is coming but I do not wish for it to stop

Goodbye. 

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I hate my father. Not a "in mad at him cause in his kid"...

I hate my father. Not a "in mad at him cause in his kid" hate. I mean, i really, REALLY despise my own dad. He's a depression causing sack of shit who has verbally abused my mother for years, started recently doing the same to me and my younger sister, and has turned my older brother into a literal clone of himself. He doesnt help around the house, just sits on his ass whenever he is back from work watching politics for i shit you not 12-15 hours a day, and plays goddamn candy crush while he does so. He doesnt think nand act like a normal human, and i am now fearful for my life, my sisters and my mothers because of hos tempermental my.brother has become. He's a fucking monster now... He mooches off of my devices, angry when you try to start a basic conversation, and broke multiple things during a rage episode last month.. He slammed the garage door so hard he broke the glass, tossed a table and destroyed the christmas present i got him recently. I went to my own mother, talking...

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Keep seeing 9 11

II dont know what to do i keep seeing three but it seems like two the numbers are 9 and 11 i see them beside or ontop of each other like i see 9 abd then 11 not 1 1. 11. I dont what to do please help me i told my friend but they dont know what to do pkeas help.

For the past two weeks I've been "borrowing" my mothers...

For the past two weeks I've been "borrowing" my mothers heels and wearing them to school. Yesterday, as I was stepping off the bus I was greeted with the sound that was none other than my bus driver. She was saying "How do you stay so balanced in those heels," and of course, I (being as confident as I was) replied "Its just soooooo easy."

And then I fell off the steps.

Oh the mortification!

The horror!

What if my crush (who also rode my bus) saw me?!

I was in so much despair that I ran as fast as could in those d*nmed heels towards my house. As I was unlocking my door there was only one thing on my mind.

Suicide.

I kicked of the heels and ran to the kitchen, angrily yanking open the silverware drawer. I grabbed a butterknife and tried to slit the palms of my hand.

Nothing happened.

This *is* my destiny.

My only regret now, is wearing those f*cking heels.

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Mother

I have to get it out. When I was 11, I saw my mother sexually assualting and molesting our domestic help. It's such a vivid memory. She was in the hallway to the kitchen, there were tears streaming down our helper's face, she was protesting so horridly, yet my mother went on touching and pressing her breasts, she was crying so hard, and even saw me. Both of them saw me, yet my mother did not stop. I can't believe I was raised such a monster. This memory is so clear, and it comes up so frequently I start crying. There was a grin on my mother's face, I remember it so clearly. She was enjoying it. I hope she dies. 

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