Secrets about Guilt & Remorse

 

There is this guy i am really in love with. I love him...

There is this guy i am really in love with. I love him more than i have ever loved anyone all my life and he is committed and i knew it from always. Other than having those feelings for him we are great friends.  One day i spent the night at his flat and we kissed... Kissing grew intense and we made out a bit... That was not the only night we did it. It happened 10 more times. He could not resist telling his girlfriend everything and my best friend broke up with her saying that he has polluted the relationship and he does not  deserve to be with her... I feel responsible... He loves him and he will never be able to stay happy without her and that girl, she hates me and thinks i am a bitch(she is right though).  This is all... I am a person good for nothing... I ruined our friendship and i ruined a beautiful relationship  and i hate myself 

I was raised religious and always felt guilty about...

I was raised religious and always felt guilty about masterbating. I've masterbated several times to facebook pics of my high school drama teacher. I hate how guilty I'm feeling over something that I know is completely normal

sometimes i wish i could kill myself because i get shitty...

sometimes i wish i could kill myself because i get shitty teammates in a game named league of legends

My Tale

I am i my mid twenty. I have a three year old daughter and i am currently married to my soul mate. Even if she doesn't believe me. Just to clarify yes i am a woman who is married to a woman. Please don’t take offense to that statement, it just something that i have learned to state because people in the past have misinterpreted what it actually means and don’t respect it. Sorry if i sound cold or brutally blunt but honesty is the only way i know how to be. I couldn't tell a lie, even if it meant to save my life. Imp not going to go through every detail of my life, because to me it is rather tragic and not one i can finish without breaking down and shutting down. Hopefully highlights work. When i was 18 i came  out to as a lesbian, lost my family due, most of my friends, and my job within a two week period of coming out. I also lost a child; she would have been 9 this year. At first i took to drink drugs and sex to cope with my pain....

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I'm a metaphorical rapist. Rather than force sex, I force...

I'm a metaphorical rapist. Rather than force sex, I force conversation. I feel horrible. One of my victims has forced me to come to this realization. I know now, what I have done. I know I'm a creep. I know that I need reconciliation, but I also know that there is no chance for such forgiveness.

I'm sorry.

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I had a crush on a girl approximately two and a half...

I had a crush on a girl approximately two and a half years ago. For a few months I would just stare at her in the bus we used to travel through and ultimately after six months or so, I started talking to her and we exchanged notes and everything. Then we also started chatting and I told her about my family and she told me about hers but I was pretty sure she didn't look at me the way I looked at her. So after a few more months I confessed my crush but didn't propose her to be my girlfriend as I was myself not ready for a commitment.

We still chatted frequently. But one day I realized she never opened the conversation so I backed out. Two months later she messaged me back. I waited for two months for her to message me back. A month later I attended a wedding of someone in her family uninvited. The next day she told me that she had a boyfriend since the past two months. I was dumbfounded and felt used. I asked her to block me as it would be too difficult for me to do so...

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The guilt of cheating is slowly destroying me.

I am in a three year realationship with an amazing boy. Yes we have our ups&downs like every couple, but I took one tiny flaw into my head and couldn't shake it, the fact his parents treat him like a child. I went out one night with my best friend and we met up with two boys we know, we went back to hers drunk and we all hanged out, as we drank more I remeber less. I remember him getting into the single bed I was sleeping in and after that I just remeber what I did. I cheated on my boyfriend I broke his commitment I threw away everything we had, and now I'm so scared I'm going to loose the only person I ever want to see myself with, I'm a fool and I cant believe what I've did, someone please tell me what I should do.

He doesn't know or suspect anytbing, I've also never did anytbing like this before.

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I'm afraid to leave

I'm getting married in July. I love my fiancé very much but sometimes I'm afraid of him. He has a short temper and is very emotionally abusive. He controls most aspects of my life and is very sexist towards me. I did something awful and cheated on him, if he ever knew, I don't think it would turn out well for me. But, I loved the other man very much and he was very kind and gentle. I scarred that man emotionally because I wouldn't leave my fiancé for him. I fear the consequences of leaving my fiancé. Not just of him hurting me, but him hurting himself. I'd rather suffer with the guilt and fear, than let him die. So I can never leave.

I need to release myself of this pain I carry on me I'm...

I need to release myself of this pain I carry on me I'm drinking,druging trying to cheat I'm found everything wrong a !an is not supposed to do and I'm tired of the dog I've become I want change I want to be a loving husband a good father a reliable brother I need help,please I pray tody that when someone reads this they will give !e a blessing of healing,I have no job but all the inspiration in the world to be so ething good,but my dirtydeaires havekrippled me lord I pray that you will co e into my life father take your staff and beat me father into the man I should be amen.

I have been suffering from depression for years which is...

I have been suffering from depression for years which is still ongoing and getting worse. I don't have enough energy to seek help anymore. I have been shitty to people to the point that I cut ties with most of my friends, and even the best one. I miss them a lot, but I don't think they would like to reconnect with me anymore because they deserve way more than my friendship. Funny enough, I am in a relationship and I love my partner, but I feel sorry for my partner for staying with someone like me. I am still broke and have been looking for jobs for a very long time, but returned with nothing. It feels like shit every time I have to return to the same referee for reference, whom I already asked many times before, knowing that this will lead to another failure despite their words. Everything seems so useless. I just wanted to confess this here before I cannot do so anymore.

Oops

I accidentally said something that for my teacher into trouble with another teacher. I didn't mean to stir up trouble, I guess I was just being stupid and said something I shouldn't have.. Also the guilt is eating inside of me because I haven't owned up (since last year)

I confess .Imaginative Lust for ladies. Love. Money ....

I confess .Imaginative Lust for ladies. Love. Money . Power. Control. Demand. Rule the world. Astrology. Palmistry. Predictions. Smart and evil scientist being.  I am really tired being like that. I fear of loosing real life. Lust made me mud i masturbate daily for many years i feel and fear loosing of strenght.I show myself. I am really a good and genuine boy i have respect for ladies i have honour for them from heart. But i am seeing porn daily morning and mostly seeing rape videos where innocents are being raped. I feel pleasure from it. I am becoming lazy and overconfident. SAVE ME FROM THIS MENTALITY. I am looking for strange sex and gay sex . Even i had chance of two or more encounters orally and i grave for. I fear i will loose my things. I am becoming like mad person. I am fatty and not doing exercise i like to do and strenghthen myself. I am avoiding crowd and i have ego nature. I want to be a inventor or creator or discoverer person. I want to be emerge as Sun and light...

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My friend and I met a guy at an event. She had...

My friend and I met a guy at an event. She had accompanied me despite her general lack of interest in the rather esoteric subject matter, but she was the one he was drawn to.

I deliberately sabotaged their relationship within a couple of weeks through online deception. She still doesn't know and I will probably never tell her.

I masturbated I took a prescription drug that I'm not...

I masturbated I took a prescription drug that I'm not prescribed I smoked cigarettes became drunk neglected to share my faith I used profanity I lied I was selfish impatient disrespectful I passed judgment talked about others negatively behind their back I've been hypocritical I've had resentment and anger and I've been angry and I've had faithlessness and fear self righteousness and I've been lazy

I am a huge liar ruined my families lives. Please help me

What I have done is unbelievable and may seem impossible but its true. I was always very secretive as a kid and ungrateful and bratty and mean to my parents for no reason. They are sweet loving honest and did everything a kid could possibly dream of. I geuss my confidence was so low i felt ugly and stupid i had bad adhd and never developed any skills just kept being whiny and conplained about stuff. I always disobeyed my mom smoked weed got peircings and she was so mad. But that didnt stop me.Then at 20 i started doing speed with an old guy because i thought it would be cool and started being even worse to them calling them bad parents etc. When it was the farthest from the truth.then i went to rehab and kept this lie going for four years and my behavior got worse and worse. Kept blaming everyone for my problems got fired from jobs for cussing people out wasted my parents money. Ive never done anything good for them. I even went to jail for vandalism. Ive even assoulted my...

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Cheated on Gf

I told her I would NEVER cheat on her or hurt her in anyway, told her I would always respect her and if I ever wanted to cheat I would just leave. I had sex with another girl and I felt so guilty but after round 2 I didn't, I felt normal as if  nothing happened. I'm not in love but the guilt is killing me, I don't want to lose her and won't be Ever do it again, first time in 5 years that I've cheated  on someone 

I finally blocked/removed my emotionally abusive ex on...

I finally blocked/removed my emotionally abusive ex on everything. I feel freed.

A little over an hour ago, I was about to kill myself. I...

A little over an hour ago, I was about to kill myself. I was so close. It was the closest I ever was to suicide. I was too scared to do it. I was afraid of what it might feel like to hang myself. I tried to do it in a very awkward way. I was gonna hang myself from my doorknob. I had spoken to my Mom prior. She texted me if I was ok. I said I was. I obviously wasn't. Not long prior to speaking to my Mom, I had severely pissed off a few people I was close to. I felt so awful. I was already making plans to kill myself, but not this soon. 

I was so close to suicide, and I really wish I had killed myself. I really wish I was dead. For as long as I can remember, I've always wanted to die. It's like in Peter Pan, where he states ‘To die will be an awfully big adventure.’ I want to go on that particular adventure. I'm 22 years old. No girlfriend, never had sex, never kissed anyone. I am overweight, I have social anxiety, ADHD,

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I like to masturbate when I am alone is that wrong??

I like to masturbate when I am alone is that wrong??

I've interrupted my boss at work repeatedly I've had...

I've interrupted my boss at work repeatedly I've had worldly sorrow resentment anger I've complained to God I've been selfish impatient and I've used profanity

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