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I hate the way I look and have been fantasizing of...

I hate the way I look and have been fantasizing of stabbing myself and cutting my face. when I mention this to my mom she treats me like I'm young and stupid and pushes me away. I hate feeling this way and I can't stop. Sometimes I feel so lonely and think about ending it all.

Every once in a while I check his messages and find that...

Every once in a while I check his messages and find that he's been talking to other women, and it's around that same time that he distances himself from me. It really hurts that those times usually coincide with my birthday and our anniversaries.

I am a female and I am extremely turned on by watching...

I am a female and I am extremely turned on by watching two men have sex I don't know if that's normal or not but I get so horny about gay men and gay men having sex.

I used to like a girl in class 9th well its not even like...

I used to like a girl in class 9th well its not even like , she was my love for the first time . I always like to help her admire her since i was in class 6th . I used to be her best ever friend for all the time ,one day i forced myself to tell her that how much i love her and i did it after the final exams of my class 9th , but i never thout that will be my worst day of my life . She left the town and me not even giving a message last thing i saw was her crying face when i proposed her. I was a strong guy so i thought i should leave that and move on so i also left that school and went to a new town new school. For two years i never got in a relationship but in starting of my 12th i got a sweet girl who loves to read books and other stuffs. I started being friends with her , proposed her after 1 month and she accepted me . Everything was going good but whenever i try to show up my feelings for her that girl's crying face always relives my memory in my dreams . During that two years...

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Girls have more fun

I get jealous of the clothes that girls get to wear. I put on my wife's dresses when she's not home because I want to look pretty.

I want to end my life but my parents are always watching...

I want to end my life but my parents are always watching me. I don't know what to do. 

Long story short...I had a boyfriend. We broke up. Then...

Long story short...I had a boyfriend. We broke up. Then we got back together because I thought he had changed. How could I be so wrong? Then we broke up again. And I mean, I miss him. But that's normal. It's been a month since we broke up...and I was doing fine until my best friend told me he liked me again. She wasn't supposed to but she did anyways. He also texts her late at night saying how much he misses me, how lonely he feels and how happy I made him. And now I starting to like him again... 

I have no clue what to do because he doesn't really talk to me anymore..and if he does it would be for about 30 seconds. Then he makes it even more awkward by acting all scared and secretive around me. So I don't know what to do...I just need advice please! 

Long story short...I had a boyfriend. We broke up. Then...

Long story short...I had a boyfriend. We broke up. Then we got back together because I thought he had changed. How could I be so wrong? Then we broke up again. And I mean, I miss him. But that's normal. It's been a month since we broke up...and I was doing fine until my best friend told me he liked me again. She wasn't supposed to but she did anyways. He also texts her late at night saying how much he misses me, how lonely he feels and how happy I made him. And now I starting to like him again... 

I have no clue what to do because he doesn't really talk to me anymore..and if he does it would be for about 30 seconds. Then he makes it even more awkward by acting all scared and secretive around me. So I don't know what to do...I just need advice please! 

people think I'm a knob at school but little they know I...

people think I'm a knob at school but little they know I'm a very caring person inside (and out of school), and nobody ever cares about what I say or do :( also im sure I'm in love with a stranger, but I just don't think they are as into me as i am into them ❤️

When I was 12, my mom told me I was a hypochondriac. A...

When I was 12, my mom told me I was a hypochondriac. A big word that means( and I recently found out is a anxiety disorder) I always think there is something wrong with me, which I translated to attention whore, super low self esteem not meant to offend anyone else. About a year later I found out I was gay, then 3months ago I developed anxiety because of being gay and a wholesome other problem, then I developed depression(self diagnosed). This all sparked my first ever major fear, that my brain is lying to me. Is that bad?

I am just a wimp who can't deal with life. 

I'm a metaphorical rapist. Rather than force sex, I force...

I'm a metaphorical rapist. Rather than force sex, I force conversation. I feel horrible. One of my victims has forced me to come to this realization. I know now, what I have done. I know I'm a creep. I know that I need reconciliation, but I also know that there is no chance for such forgiveness.

I'm sorry.

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In love with friend

I've known this girl since freshman year of high school ( I'm a senior now). Ever since I saw her I thought she was perfect, the perfect smile, laugh, and personality. We became friends and had a few classes together through high school. I would agree with her  everything just so I can make her feel good. I fall in love all over again everytime I see her. We don't hang out at all, I usually just see her in the hall nowadays. I'm too shy to tell her and she usually goes for different looking guys. I've been thinking about texting her after high school about how I feel because I'll probably never see her again. What should I do? 

I am 22 and still a virgin it sad I know. I've had oral sex before but that was years ago and I've seen fallen back into depression. Now it hard to hold a conversation. I need help

I am 22 and still a virgin it sad I know. I've had oral sex before but that was years ago and I've seen fallen back into depression. Now it hard to hold a conversation. I need help

I have way too much pride it's like it hurts me me to ask...

I have way too much pride it's like it hurts me me to ask for help. Everyone around me except me to to have everything together but the truth is I don't and I hate everything about myself. This is not a pity party I just don't know what to do with myself. I'm 22 and I'm still a virgin sad yeah I know but that my reality. Im just a distance person because I lost my mother when I was 9 and i never felt alive after that. I somethings just feel like I don't bellong here any I thought of killing myself but I didn't want my brother and sister to see that way I'm supposed to be strong for them. I feel like this is the only place I can talk and not be completely laughed at I need help. 

I'm such a coward

I am miserable, my life is hell, everything just keeps getting worse and I want to die but I'm too much of a coward to kill myself because I've tried before but I even managed to get that wrong, I'm such a freaking failure I can't even die properly, so instead I just lock myself up in my room slashing up my arms because nobody seems to care that there's blood stains all over my bed and clothes and I'm just, argh! The world may hate me but no one can hate me more than I hate myself.. :'-(

I've been cutting for 10 years now and my depression isn...

I've been cutting for 10 years now and my depression isn't getting any better, if anything it's getting worse again. My dad hates me and sees me as nothing but a disappointment and a failure because I'm a delinquent and a lesbian. I want to be an artist but he thinks that I'm wasting my time and being stupid because there's no way I'll make it, all I've ever wanted is for my father to be proud of me but I'll just never be good enough for him. And what's worse is that I have to repeat my senior year of high school and I'm terrified. I've been bullied my entire life and it's only gotten worse over the years and now I have to go through another 10 months of being insulted, put down and beat up until my vision's blurry and it's hard to breathe and I can't stand up or even get to my knees anymore. I'm in therapy but it's not helping anything, believe it or not it's making everything worse, I haven't slept or eaten much over this past week, it seems that more often than not all I can do...

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Anyone want to kik with a 26f curvy rocker-chick??

My kik is SynfulByNature ;)

It frustrates me to see everyone I know from school-and...

It frustrates me to see everyone I know from school-and-college-days, are getting married, have sexual life or some have girl friend. Originally, I'm from India and sex is a kind of big deal there. Or may be, no certainly, I was an ignorant and I never even tried in that direction. Living in USA for the past one year as a student. Student life is hard. It is challenging me emotionally at the age of 27. Still a virgin, never had a girl in my life, don't know how to talk to girl to get in their pants or to put it in decent words --  how to flirt and talk sexually. On the top of these things, I have tons of student loan to pay within a year after completion of my graduate studies which is around 45K. The pressure to pay loans back as soon as possible only makes it worse even though I know I can do nothing right now. I think I am failing, no -- not failing exactly. I will overcome and prevail. Failing is the possibility I can not effort to entertain. but...

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Lost

So yeah… Uhm. These past few weeks had been pretty rough for me. Uhm. For the first time in my life I don’t have any witty things to say. This must be the feeling of a heartbreak? Emptiness? Loneliness? I don’t know. I don’t know anything anymore.

Based on a psychological study, a crush only lasts for a minimum of 4 months. If it exceeds that time limit, then you’re already in love. Three years ago, what meant to be a silly crush grew into a tangled mess of feelings that I couldn’t even describe. At first I thought it was her looks. She was beautiful. But beautiful is understatement, man. She’s everything that I couldn’t put words to.

But then I started falling for her personality as well. I started noticing and falling on the little things she does.

I knew I was in big trouble.

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My biggest black star

All last summer my 17 year old cousin sexually abused me.... I had always seen him as my older brother and best friend..... I do t know what to do... I want to tell my parents but don't know how........

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