Secrets about Sins & Confessions

 

I bleed to dry out the pain...

I bleed to dry out the pain

and my head gets dizzy and i am so tired

i have anxiety and depression

i have flaws

i am not accepted

and i love two genders

when i should feel incapable of loving one

i cut myself sore until my tears feel like blood

and i keep it in

and i am so sad

and until there is a point to the universe

i will look forward to nothing but death

I Avtar lusts angers greeds attaches and has pride being...

I Avtar lusts angers greeds attaches and has pride being weighed down by God realm.

I was molested by my brother for about 7 or 8 years. Over...

I was molested by my brother for about 7 or 8 years. Over the course of those years he use to let his best friend abuse me. The older I got, the more I thought it was normal.

Until I had a break and asked my mother why did she turn a blind eye to what was happening, but she still denies till this day of having any knowledge. Even though she caught him doing me one night.

I am almost forty and ashamed to say that he was my first orgasm and that I have not experienced pleasure with anyone else. It makes me feel sick, disgusting and worthless.

Recently, I been disconnected, loss and unfeeling and am afraid my relationship of 6 years is suffering. I don't know what to do or how to work through these things. It's so hard. I love Master very deeply and he knows I need pain to kill my internal conflicts.

I just embarrassed, I want to be normal.

Read Full Secret

Wish I was dead

I really wish I was dead

I am married to an amazing man. I am extremely lucky and...

I am married to an amazing man. I am extremely lucky and I love him completely.

I am extremely, palpably, magnetically drawn to another, who is a family friend. He and I had a very close call once, years ago, to the point of penetration... it stopped because we didn't want to be found out by my family. i was living at home, it was after a party, and the words were [me] "We have to be quiet" [him] "I can't be..." - and it stopped there. We went out once afterward, and that was that. Nothing more. This was well before I knew my husband. I think we both felt a little awkward for a time, a little guilty because of the complications.

Fast forward a few years. My husband and I are honest about our pasts. He knows about this, and we are all still casual friends. My husband knows I love him, but even he says that when the two of us (I and our friend) are in the room together there is tangible energy between us. We can't help it and don't think about it. It's just there....

Read Full Secret

I am getting married in March, that is love marriage. I...

I am getting married in March, that is love marriage. I know one guy since last 3 years but never became even friends and me, my would be husband and he working in the same organisation. Since 4th Feb we started knowing each other and became good friends. We started having bike rides, late night chatting, coffee, movie etc. and unknowingly started having feelings for each other. We used to flirt casually but now it became so serious. We can't stop our tears when we chat. During bike ride he continuously stares at me via the looking glass and same thing for me as well !!! He is coming in my marriage too as my would be husband has invited him. We know it's worthless still the days which we are spending together means a lot to us. He has promised that he will always be there in my need. And said those 3 magical words and I couldn't stop my tears. Can anyone please suggest me how to recover?

I'm addicted to sex because I'm an introvert..

I'm addicted to sex because I'm an introvert and have been rejected by girls many times. The problem is that I'm addicted to sex with the wrong sex. Please help me get out of this before I move into deep depression.

May sound odd but. I know there is something THICK has...

May sound odd but I know there is something THICK has been trying to force me against my own, true, personal, nature. Really forcefully pushing hard against what God created me to be. If I am supposed to be one thing then something big is trying to force me into another (why big? because why would anyone care about somebody else's nature unless changing that nature served a greater purpose, not necessarily a positive purpose) 

Also, trying to make be/become the opposite of what I should act, think, say, feel, believe. 

Just pushing for the complete opposite. As if the "odds" had life on it's own , and had to fulfill orders to always make me be at the wrong time, at the wrong place, with the wrong person (even trying to make me be the wrong person to be at the wrong time and place), say/do/make/be/feel the wrong thing always at the wrong time and space of course. It is as if things, Everything actually, have been and ARE being inverted, or upside down. And the...

Read Full Secret

I am a female and I don't really understand why I am...

I am a female and I don't really understand why I am called a dick too many times for a lady. It doesn't even make any sense when analysing my behaviour and manners, attitudes etc

I wish I knew how to deal with the skipping of...

I wish I knew how to deal with the skipping of acquaintance status steps, performed by others on me. Usually the whole simple process of making somebody an acquaintance becomes just too quick for me or people were trying to scare me. The steps necessary for getting known by others simply are inexistent. For example, if I am knew in some place people come to me and ask super private questions . For example they jump from"What's your name?" To "When was your first time?" , or if there is a neighbor I barely speak to unless a "hi" to be polite, and next day he is stalking me to places when I try and TRY so hard to be so discreet that I don't even have social media anymore. Why would anyone try to scare a visibly shy and insecure person into more timidity and isolation? (if this wasn't the initial goal when they initiated getting acquainted with me then what it was.) I never saw people doing this to anybody else though.

I don't know how long I've been cutting myself but Its...

I don't know how long I've been cutting myself but It's close to consuming me whole leg.

I wanna know if my bf loves me he have a gf in there...

I wanna know if my bf loves me he have a gf in there place and hes here working abroad where he met me now we are in relationship for 2 years this 2016 Dec they broke up because the rumor between us reach her.... The problem is my bf don't want me to check his phone he put a password.. When he chat and I look on it he gets mad... I'm even told to act like friend in his fb not a lover as his family might know about me and that culture is too strict in Nepal...

Another thing is he always say that someday he will go home and I will be happy he judge me often in negative blame me for my mistakes he say bad words lots of things that make me cry when I don't make love hope you can give me a good advice to this

Read Full Secret

I'm in love

I'm in love with my straight best friend

The last two days, I lied to some people about my life,...

The last two days, I lied to some people about my life, about other people life. Also I consecrate my bad to god, but yesterday I did many things wrong... After confess many things to god. So I wanna confess these things. I need god, I need him... I confess his is my savior and died at the cross for me. I believe on it.

I have sinned. I want to repent..

Я согрешил. Хочу покаяться. Я грешник из России. 

Translation added by moderator:

I have sinned. I want to repent. I am a sinner from Russia.

Read Full Secret

I dreamt about humping together with a boy that looked...

I dreamt about humping together with a boy that looked like Tsukki from Haikyuu. It's kind of a repeated one...

Girl, 19 and single

I avatar don't want to hyper ventilate or have problematic...

I avatar don't want to hyper ventilate or have problematic thinking such as kaam with bucha, mata ji, or kutha. I could use a prayer in dealing with gods realm, guru Nanak, gods justice council, and dharam raj. They want to give me an anxiety attack. I want to breathe easy. Hopefully it all goes away and doesn't come back tomorrow or ever.

I never commit any injustice to people I envy

I never commit any injustice to people I envy, even if I have reason to I keep it to myself, I HAVE to. I don't want to be driven by negative emotions and don't want to attract negative attention to me.   

However whenever another feels envious of me they never EVER he/she never keep it to themselves, they always act upon it or act it out. This has happened so many times in my life that I've become secretive about anything good but people always find out and destroy it or impede it from happening

.

Read Full Secret

I don't think envy is that bad, it is only bad for the...

I don't think envy is that bad, it is only bad for the one who feels it . Envy is only bad when the envious put their envy into action/act it out. By committing injustices against the object of the envy or attacking the object of envy . Envy by itself is normal (when reasonable). Everybody feels envious, with reason, at one point or another in life. However everyone also might feel envious without reason at one point or other more than once in life. However even when I have reason to feel envious I feel remorse when nobody ever feels remorse or confess having felt envy of me without cause.

I hate it that I will never be able to prove how much of...

I hate it that I will never be able to prove how much of my life have been suffocated, restricted by other people (most of times by fully grown adults too or people the same age as me) because in most times it is done indirectly and it is so frequent. The worst is that I Am the one accused of suffocating other people's lives and restricting them and imprisoning them. It is so rare when I ever impede somebody from doing something. I don't understand why I am the one accused of imprisoning and impeding anybody of achieving their dreams (unless their dream includes killing me). I don't imprison anybody, I don't impede anybody from getting whatever or whoever they want. Unless the person want to get it from me, for example if someone wants to drain my energy, I may try to impede this person from draining me. I am a fully grown adult I know that the sun shines for everybody.

Pages